"Every day is a quiet disaster"
- Chris, from dashboard confessional

brilliant words, by a brilliant man.

i've been thinking....
i think television should be revered as an essential component of our society.
without the distracting glare of our little magic box, we'd be left to our own devices, without the aid of
its abilty to keep our minds off of reality. Happiness seems to come from being oblivious in life. Ignorance is bliss, you know? like when u start a new relationship, get a new job, are really into a hobby...whatever.
we're happiest when we're distracted....our thoughts consumed by a singularness that allows us to ignore the issues we would otherwise be pondering - the state of the world, or place in this infinite chess board of life, the meaning of it all. at heart, surely everyone is a philosopher. The idea of a true philosopher being totally happy and content with their life seems to be a logical impossibility. So....maybe we're not MEANT to be happy. wouldn't that be a shot to the status quo.....on the other hand, if we're NOT philosophers, then what can we be? if not oblivious, the only other healthy choice seems to be indifferent. In which case...i'd choose to be the miserable one...

I updated most sections. FINALLY.

so....it's world youth day (week?). kinda neat i guess. asides from the traffic problems it may cause, but tiss a small price to pay to host catholicpalooza 2002. it realy DOES
seem a bit too commercial eh? with all the TTC posters advertising it like it's some hip thing. I didn't realize it was about "being cool"......but anyways....i'm a bit confused about what the big deal about the pope is? i can't, in my very limited memory, recall the last time the pope did something great for the world.....i mean.....to me, at least, he's sort of like the queen. He waves a lot. gives a few speeches. then sits down. The difference is, the queen isn't preaching to us about living godly lives and yadda yadda...
i mean, i guess everyone has their calling, and maybe God's plan for him is to be the voice for catholics to hear on earth. But like....mother teresa....she was down in the trenches. Not just talking the talk, but walking the walk. She didn't GIVE examples of living a godly life. she WAS an example. whats the pope? we barely see the guy....he could be a well constructed robot for all we know. He's extremely private....lives like a king, has a bullet proof car wherever he goes....man. it all seems a little...odd.
not that i don't respect the man. i do. i just don't see what the big deal is about him.....he's a great man. but is he really greater then say....nelson mandella? personally...i don't think he is....so why the big fuss about his visit? i just don't get it.

you know what's kind of confusing?
the whole fiasco about that jewish guy's stabbing death. why is it so important to some Jews to prove beyond the shadow of a doubt that
the crime was a racially motivated act? doe sit MATTER? will the label "hate-crime" vindicate the mans death? the dude who probably stabbed him
has already been caught. whats the point of pursuing this further? what does proving the motivation do? he was KILLED. not persecuted, not stoned to
near death, not insulted or discriminated against. the poor man is DEAD. who cares what the reason is? so what if it was a hate crime? are we suppose
to run out and have a city wide sweep for neo-nazi skin heads? what about when a black guy is killed? is that a hate crime? a gay guy? an asian?
this is so ridiculous......some people seriously need to straighten out their priorities.

the weezer/dashboard show was wicked cool....dashboard played a couple of new songs, and a bunch of fan fave's. tight set.
weezer brought the rock HUGE, they played a lot of older songs (the played across the sea! i was going nuts!) and had a suprising amount
of stage energy. only in dreams was effin AMAZING...i think i was most impressed by it just because the flashign =w= symbol which i was
confused at not seeing, rose out of the stage lifting pat with it to hang above everybody like some crazy backstreet boy stunt.
but it was soooooo cool.....

anyways, all in all, a really good setlist made the show great. the encore was sort of anti-climactic, but it still rocked: kickin it old school.
can't wait till the next one....beth orton's in town in august....hm...

so, i realize i'm not quite done. and keeping this page updated is far more work than i'm willing to do.
but hey, i'll try i guess. this blog thing is so nice and conveniant....

anyways, i have an itch to go camping. the weather this week has been amazing. nice and warm, sunny, slight breeze, not TOO hot or TOO sunny.
AMAZING. it should be like this year round, except for christmas and the end of the hockey season.
mmmmm......perfect weather....

if anyone needs a random basketball player to play with, HOLLA! i wanna play more often dammit all...

working would be so much cooler if it didn't involve waking up before 11am.

so i was thinking last night....
non-christian's don't get to go to heaven right? but really, when God expects them to be converted without seeing him, isn't that unfair?
sure, it's easy for someone to become christian if their family member is spared from aids....or they survive a car accident, or they are
the recipient of an act of absolute grace by a christian. but what about all the non believers who are living totally content lives?
like, not necessarily the steretypical material obsessed secular person, who eventually discovers they need God because they've been
living an empty life and all that cliche stuff. i mean GOOD people. people who's lives are maybe more christian than most "christian's"
except they don't believe in God. and all i can ask is....why SHOULD they? they've lived their whole lives without christianity....whats to
make them believe all of a sudden that they need God? that they owe God everything? if God doesn't reveal himself OBVIOUSLY to every
individual, how can they be expected to just fall into line by their own free will? doesn't it seem kind of unfair? i just don't get it....
and i suppose thats where WE come in. as christians. salt of the earth. but what are we suppose to say? "uh...you're doing fine. but all
you've accomplished isn't yours. it's Gods." which is the absolute truth. but unpleasent to hear nonetheless. so many questions....

well, only one section left to go. events....
HOWEVER, i finally got a job today, and i start monday, so i guess i really will have less time to play with
this site than i originally though. oh well, it's for the best.

mmm...money....

hm....the only sections left are the links, book list and upcoming events section, which will include not only events in my life and for my friends, but also concert listings, release dates for movies, books and albums, and birthdays and such. also, the archives are working now, in case u wanted to sift through my past rantings. the button is a little hidden, but it's right under the blogger button on the left. theres also a link beside there that sends u back home.

PLUS, i changed the colour of the scroll bar on the blog. (irene's suggestion). weeee! look at that blue scroll bar scroll!

i guess i got bored a lot faster than i thought i would huh?
the new site is a work in progress....it's about a third done now.
i should be finished somewhat by this wknd. yay.
keep checking back, cuz if you're reading this, you'll probably be
the people who see the NEW site first, haha....i know who you are.
all 3 of you who check this thing, hahahaha