Oct 19, 2006

where cedar nouns and adverbs walk

this band has....blown my face off.

i find myself listening to an awful lot of cancon lately. must be all that cbc radio permeating my very soul.

anyways, life continues to roll along -- surprises are rare, but i find changes are more and more common every day. if that makes any sense? i rarely do i suppose.

we're all getting busier it seems. everyone is starting to settle into phases of life.

some of us are really digging into school, some of us into careers, and some of us still searching, or perhaps dabbling in some of both. either way, i can finally see the paths i have walked with friends for so many years begin to diverge. not that this is a bad thing, nor would i ever wish for complacency or stagnation among my friends or any of their individual journeys.

nonetheless, it's an observation that is at once exciting, yet bittersweet. i know no one is actually GOING anywhere (well, with the sole exceptions being those who are already gone) but being in the same city is not the same as being in the same lives.

moreover, being in the same lives in different capacities is sometimes the same as having to adjust to people being physically away.

i'm not being all pansy or anything, it's not like i'm sitting here crying over my keyboard. i still see people, i talk to people, i keep in touch the best i can.

but when you step back, right now you can actually see us growing up. coming in and out, relationships changing, evolving, dying and blossoming. it happens all the time, but it seems with the way this school year has started, these things are going to start happening kind of in bunches.

maybe it's because i've been kind of disconnected from large groups lately. maybe my time in relative isolation has led me to exist more on my individual relationships than i have in the past. maybe my feelings are circumstantial -- but then again, maybe i'm actually changing.

regardless, this kind of perspective on life is rare for me. so i'm going to enjoy it while it lasts.

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